'If you are going to get married, date that person for a long time. But: 'It's better to be alone than to live with someone who makes you feel alone.'' It's hard not to fall into the same powerless self-loathing pits. I feel all those old habits from childhood creeping back even though I'm desperately trying to fight them off. I don't want to let this ruin me (I still grew and learned a lot during that time), but man. So I kind of wish I'd never gotten married. Until like a decade later when he pulled the fucking rug from under my feet - he was apparently a different person all along and fundamentally betrayed my trust. Genuinely at peace for probably the first time in my life. 'After a childhood of emotional abuse, I was so relieved to find someone I loved who loved me I trusted him completely and was happy to be married. Divorce sucks, and I regret ever falling in love.'
